New Me.

Today I feel like a whole new me just enveloped myself.

That didn't make sense.

I just had one of those days where you reaffirm your dreams, goals, and your sense of being.

I've always been one to second guess myself and be completely indecisive

and well let's face it, that is never going to go completely away.

But there was a time where I didn't know what I was going to do as a major, what college I wanted to go to, where/if I wanted to move, etc.

It was frustrating.

I hated being asked what my dreams and goals were because they were so blah and ordinary.

Some people were going to school out of state, getting awesome jobs, living life under the sun.

Or so it seemed.

It's not like I envied what they were doing necessarily but I envied the fact that they had direction.

But now it feels like the tables have turned.

I feel like I have a grasp on life {somewhat}

and just very happy with where I am.

Life is very hard sometimes.

It definitely knocks you on your butt but that's where character is made.

At the lowest of lows, at wit's end, when the mask is taken off, etc.

GOALS:

I have dreamt since I was a little girl that I would go to the University of Utah.

I've always wanted to be a teacher.

I LOVE history {nerd here}

I love my family and always want to be here for them.

I want to be that friend, sister, daughter, neighbor, etc. that people can count on.

I want to meet someone new and experience something different.

LIFE NOW:

I work for one of the greatest companies in Utah.

I get to go to school {I really do love school}

I get to teach my love for the greatest game to girls I come to love.

I have the greatest friends and family a girl could ask for.

I can support myself.

I have a strong testimony of the gospel

....AND it snowed. haha

I'm getting places and it may not be anywhere further than 50 miles.

But for me, that's not what a successful life is about.

It's not about the fancy things or even the medals.

It's about the people and memories.

I'm sorry that this was such a life cheerleader moment but I just felt like I needed to write down my feelings.

I am kind.

I am smart.

I am important.

Thank you Mae.